• A Day With My Kids.

    01/02/2016 - By 

    Today is Monday. The schools here are having a PD Day, where teachers go to learn and the kids stay home from school. My kids ate breakfast for an extra hour and now are running around pretending to be Pokemon characters and dragons. They are hyper! Normally we would have struggled them in to their snow pants, coats, hats and mitts and walked them to school. I would be back home,  having coffee and looking up emails on my phone. Josh would be working from the living room while finishing up a coffee before taking off. Today has been different…

  • Why I Want to Cry When My Alarm Goes Off

    29/01/2016 - By 

    I am NOT a morning person. I never have been. I take about two hours to feel like my eyes are fully open and I often feel energized at night time. Night time is when I suddenly feel the urge to start giant craft projects or when I have my best writing ideas. My daughter calls me Snorlax, the famous sleepy Pokemon character who seldom wakes up and is motivated by food. She’s not far off. My kids laugh at me when I sleep in on weekends, asking me why I “love sleeping so much”. It’s not that I’m depressed…

  • My “New” Journey

    15/01/2016 - By 

    I am an arrogant idiot. There, I said it. Or I was. I was one of those “I looked up some fit quotes and ten articles about fitness, and now I know everything” assholes. Well then, if I know everything, why was I yo-yoing between 10 lbs from a healthy weight to 60 lbs away from it for years? Why did I look in the mirror and still see 200lb me from ten years ago??   I always thought, since I am not obese anymore, I didn’t need help. Judgmental, control freak me said that if I couldn’t do it…

  • Feeling Calm All The Time is BullSh*t.

    19/12/2015 - By 

    I see a lot of articles lately on teaching yourself, or your children, to reach a “lasting calm” that “never” fades. Teach your children and tell your friends, folks! You will only have one emotion until the end of time! Fabulous, correct? No. There are so many articles about this that I am starting to get a little affected by them. It’s not right. People who are always trying to achieve a “lasting calm”, even during their most stressful times, are doing themselves a disservice, I think. They come back from yoga or a meditation retreat feeling “blissful” or “enlightened”,…

  • Diva Cup Review

    29/11/2015 - By 

    Okay girls, let’s talk about our period. Specifically, how we stop the flow. Over the years I have tried a lot of the brands of pads and tampons, even OB which comes without an applicator. Which kind of grossed me out, so it makes no sense that I would try the Diva Cup. But yet….   Every month I curse nature that I get my period and that it costs me so much money. Before having kids I had such a heavy and thick period that I would have to change my tampon every 3 hours. Since having kids, my…

  • Why I’m Not Focusing On Halloween

    31/10/2015 - By 

    When I tell people I want to be a writer, they scoff and then ask what I REALLY want to be. But that’s all that I love. Anything with words. My children now being in school in the morning means I have a scant two hours to get some writing down, or at least some creative brainstorming. I try to regularly update this blog and I contribute to any site that will publish my work. But lately, I have hit a wall. I can’t seem to get anything down. As soon as I sit down, all I can think of…

  • The Stars Winked, They Knew It Too

    28/10/2015 - By 

    eight years ago. pasta and potatoes at every meal empty pockets; only food that fit my budget.  in a new city, needing a rebirth, living out of my suitcase, on the wrong side of the tracks. early mornings, up to catch the train. i watched drug deals happen and turned my face against the icy Spring wind that was trying to freeze me; wondering what I was thinking. <3 hustling on the phone to pay my rent, pay my debts. convinced by the eclectic crowd to grow to love the city, to learn to love the night life. the introvert…

  • A Betta Fish That Can Dance

    24/10/2015 - By 

    My daughter LOVES (with a capital LOVES) animals. She begged me for a pet for quite awhile. We already have two cats, so it would have to be something small and something my landlord would approve of. I considered a hedgehog but there were several factors that didn’t work for that. The landlord may not approve, the cage would be too heavy, the cats may not be okay with it, the kids may be too loud around it and it was expensive to initially set up. Plus, the care may be too much for a 7 year old, which means…

  • The Fairy Tale is Real, It’s Just Not What You Would Expect.

    21/10/2015 - By 

    My husband and I have a “puke-worthy cute” (we’ve been told)  relationship. We always kiss each other goodbye, text each other during the day to check in (“How’s your day going gorgeous?”) and hug each other randomly during the day. We ask how the other one is doing, share a laugh, and help each other cook meals. We have a solid friendship and we have worked hard to get here, in a way, and in other ways it was just a chemical attraction that clicked something inside of us and made us irresistible to the other person. I think it…

  • I Thought About Leaving My Baby in A Garbage Can….How to Help Someone with Postpartum Depression

    19/10/2015 - By 

    A little while ago, I was reading one of my favourite blogs, MindBodyGreen, and answered an open call to tell a story about struggles having kids or in the first year. I answered, with the intention to just offer sympathy to these women who are trying and can’t have kids, but ended up telling my own story. I was honoured when they wanted to publish it. My story was about surviving postpartum depression. I think every woman has a bit of depression after having a baby. This is bad enough itself and women don’t often offer up that they are…